Idk.

What am I doing that makes it so easy for people to leave, but makes me feel empty?

You left me when I needed you.

Go ahead leave. It won’t be the first time it’s happened and won’t be the last.

Lonely

I just feel so lonely and empty. I used to be so happy. Fuck love and you for leaving when I needed you most and for showing me all guys end up the same.

All my friends thought I was a very happy human being. Because that’s how I acted- like a really happy human being. But all that pretending made me tired. If I acted the way I felt, then I doubt my friends would have really hung out with me. So the pretending wasn’t all bad. The pretending made me less lonely. But in another way, it made me more lonely because I felt like a fraud. I’ve always felt like a fake human being.
Last Night I Sang to the Monster (Benjamin Alire Sáenz)

I hate to say I want you , when you make it so clear you don’t want me.